Too Fast To Live, Too Young To Die...

儘管 Kurt Cobain 已經離開我們有十一年(他活於1967-1994)之久了, 不過我還是想在我的部落格(Blog)上紀念一下偉大的他...
他除了是 Grunge Rock 天團 Nirvana 的吉它手兼創作主唱外, 也是將整個次文化領導為主流文化的代表人類之一...
對於我們這些七年級生而言, 若是從小有聽過他音樂的人, 沒有一個不被他感動的...可惜的是大部份的我們認識他得太晚, 包含我在內...
Too Fast To Live, Too Young To Die...
我想 Sid Vicious of The Sex Pistols 的個人專輯名稱 "Too Fast To Live, Too Young To Die" 對他而言是再貼切不過了, 27 歲的 Rocker 就這麼自殺了!! 叫大家怎麼忍受?! 情何以堪?!
講到這邊就不自覺想到 Robert Gordon, Motley Crue ,気志團(KiShiDan)等...
他們的音樂, 我們的感動, 那是發自心底的聲音, 來自黑暗世界的吶喊啊...
雖然我不是活在那個年代, 嗯, 只有氣志團是...而且還頗搞笑的:p
離題了...再來~
但是只要聽過那些動人的曲調, 再想想現實生活中的世界...
或許真的會與 Kurt Cobain 一同選擇加入 27 club 吧...
很慶幸的, 我與他不同... 至少目前還不會自殺, 哈哈...
對我來說可能很難, 但不排除可能性~~
想著想著, 不如將他的遺書貼給大家看看, 來討論看看吧...
以下為他遺書的內容...
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To Boddah:

Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand.

All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven't felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guilty beyond words about these things.

For example when we're backstage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowd begins, it doesn't affect me the way in which it did for Freddy Mercury, who seemed to love, relish in the love and adoration from the crowd which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can't fool you, any one of you. It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I'm having 100% fun.

Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and I do, God, believe me I do, but it's not enough). I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. I must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone. I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasm I once had as a child.

On our last 3 tours, I've had a much better appreciation for all the people I've known personally and as fans of our music, but I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There's good in all us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know!

I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what I used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can't stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I've become.

I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of seven, I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along and have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess.

Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I'm too much of an erratic, moody, baby! I don't have the passion anymore, and so remember, it's better to burn out than to fade away.


Peace, Love, Empathy.

Kurt Cobain
Frances and Courtney, I'll be at your altar.
Please keep going Courtney, for Frances.
For her life, which will be so much happier without me.

I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU!
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看完以後, 你/妳有何感想呢??
另外下方有個延深閱讀, 是當初我在 PC Home 的個人新聞台所寫的文章...
叫"Kurt Cobain 与我"
大家也看一看吧...:)
enjoy it!